Regret
I can’t believe I lost the best thing that has ever happened to me. No one can ever replace him. He was the love of my life and I made just one little mistake. If only I didn’t try to move on and find a rebound. I just couldn’t help it, he didn’t love me anymore. I couldn’t deal with the pain of not being loved by someone I grew so close to. He meant everything to me since day one and I would do anything for him to feel the same about me as I feel about him. I recently told myself that I didn’t want to be with him anymore that it was just a high school thing. I believed we were forever but I thought that I was just being a teenage girl. But I know love when I feel it, everyone does no matter what they say. You know when you are in love and I was in love, deeply in love. I’m not obsessed I just lost someone who I loved more than anything in the world. I can never forget that he put me second and that he didn’t love me. But I do forgive him for leading me on and hurting me. I thought we were finally getting closer until I decided to get a rebound to see if I could get over him. I made a mistake and I was showed that the very day I found a boyfriend. That boyfriend was clingy, scary clingy. He freaked me out bad and didn’t take no for an answer. Without my friends I doubt I could ever get rid of him. After I left him he still was up on my ass. I just feel sick because of what I did. I thought I hurt the love of my life but I didn’t, he didn’t care. It did tear us apart a little but now we are better and I couldn’t ask for more. I am so happy that I didn’t lose him for good. I can’t imagine my life without him, I love him. We may not be together like I would like and I do regret everything I had done but he is still in my life and that’s enough for me.
